my first conscious breath in the morning was taken with sobs. . .
my stomach felt like regurgitating every emotion it bore the burden of. . .
my shoulders, back, neck, ached from the pain in my heart. . .
my fingers stroked my sisters hair for the last time. . .
my eyes saw her skin, fair and flawless under the pretty pink dress that adorned her sweet frame--
laying inside of her bed of white and grey. . .
I never mourned so deeply. I never thought a young girl's heart could hurt as much as mine did, but from the first day without Anna, I did see something--I saw the love in my mother's eyes when she saw her children hurting. I saw the love in my daddy's arms as they wrapped around her trembling frame. And I recognized the love in my Heavenly Father's tears as I realized they fell for me--for me and my family.
And slowly, Christ gave us the strength to uphold one another once again. He held our hands, He spoke words of comfort through His Word, He gave us things to be excited and joyful about...but most importantly, He gave us His eyes--and suddenly we could see victory in the pain...a bright and stunning Light at the end of the darkest cavern we could have stumbling through.
Five years ago today, I felt pain. . .
I've been inspired by a life. . .
I've aspired to be more. . .
I've loved deeper and stronger than I could have ever hoped to in my own power. . .
I've seen more beauty than pain. . .
I've been in the pit, so I can recognize the mountains. . .
And the sun still shines.
Forever changed. Forever touched. Forever joyful.
"Silver Lining", Danyew